🎶I NEED A VACATION🎶

The sky is gray. Earth is on fire. There’s snow on the ground. My ability to reason is tainted by chemical imbalances and an incessant need to escape. This while simultaneously trying to figure out how to get fine and maintain a pixie cut.

I’m exhausted and the only thing I want to do is hop on a plane, land in a tropical destination, lay out on the beach, and listen to waves crash with Anthony Hamilton’s Best of Me playing softly in the background.

For a long time, rest felt wasteful. I never felt I had the luxury. I always needed to be “ON” and doing something because I hadn’t "earned" a break.

Seasonal depression and negative self-talk have taken me into some scary spaces. However, thanks to therapy, I have the tools and techniques I need to navigate these moments. But I’d be lying if I didn’t say, “It’s still hard”. Winter just got here and the way my checking and savings are set up…

Moral of the story! 🎶I need a vacation🎶 shout out to Jeezy but I’m in a bind, Nate lol.

To know me means knowing I love to travel and I live for an adventure. But, since I can’t tap into the joy of leaving the city, state, country, or continent ugh, I have decided to find joy in other ways.

In the midst of merely surviving, I’ve held space to create opportunities to thrive in the future, you know,  just in case the trumpets don’t blow this week.

1.    I am working on a new business venture.

2.    I am writing another book.

3.    I am packing and planning my move.

4.    I am updating my resume and cover letters.

You might be confused as to why or how updating my resume and cover letters would bring me joy. Simple. It is a reminder of God’s grace. It is a reflection of a plan and purpose. It is a reminder of God’s promises to me. What it took for me to accomplish everything I have. How nothing was wasted, and nothing will be wasted.

So, I can rest, for now. I owe myself that luxury. I have stressed, struggled, and survived. Soon enough, bae will be tucked in my personal item preparing to be branded by customs and all will be right with my world. Until then, I’m going to check these flights (again), request these days off, and pray for an idea that will fund my lifestyle indefinitely.

Beach, waves, Anthony…I'm coming!

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